M. Saida AgostiniWebsite
M. Saida Agostini is a poet, clinician and youth worker. She has been awarded grants and fellowships from Cave Canem and the Leeway Arts Foundation. She is currently working on a chapbook and one woman show.
here is the fact: I fuck women and
you hate it, bred your own silly reclaimed blues
so deep all anyone can hear is the silence your
song leaves behind. in this story you are the heart
sick father and me, the fucked up fat daughter you
cannot leave behind, with a mouth so wide and
foul you tremble at what my tongue will create next.
believe me when I say that I have loved you so hard
that I have hated my lovers for you, dreamt of how
I could cut out a new skin where we all live and we
forget the violence and shattered glass, and only see
the father I believed in, and the daughter you wanted.
those days are past and I am left after thirty years breathless
with an ache in my side for more then what our blood has
ever given me. granny told me when I came out, I would
get aids and die. you told me I killed your heart, and mummy
pretended to have cancer. I won’t
fight anymore, I have seen the terror of battle, and this
decay can’t live on in me. the father I wanted died. you
are what I have, love what pieces you can.